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I had wondered about your reaction to changing my hair. I should be spontaneous more often! Wow talk about making a girl feel hot! When I met you at the restaurant, you stood outside waiting. As I walked towards you, your face lit up to see me. You took a few steps toward me, then you pulled me into your arms and kissed me. Mmmm, loved that! Then suddenly you got a strange expression, and held me at arms length, your brows knitted and said "Stephanie! What have you done?"
I felt at that moment that it was the single most stupid thing I'd ever done. "Umm, I had my hair styled while I waited for you?" I responded nervously.
You spun me around, looking me over closely as I nervously touched the shorter ends, brushing them back over my shoulder. I stood there for several seconds with you not responding before I said. "Do you not like it?" I had thought the face framing style would be more attractive. I had hoped that the layers would add some depth, and the bright highlights would add a little sexy oomph, while the cinnamon lowlights added a little something - I wasn't quite sure what, just something more than my plain brunette hair. But as I stood there, my hopes fell and I suddenly wanted to point out that my brows were waxed, or that my toes freshly manicured, anything to get your attention off my hair.
"Like it?" Your jaw seemed stern. "Dear Lord woman, I couldn't keep my hands off you before! Now you're even sexier! And you expect me to eat?" At that you pulled me into your embrace, kissing me firmly. A slight rumble in the back of your throat as you breathed into me. I relaxed into your embrace. As usual my worrying and fretting was for nothing.
Would I have come just for you? If I had any idea that things would be this way between us I'd have come months ago, but I think that the time we've spent getting to know each other is part of what makes things so great. I have to be honest - if I'd never stepped out of the box and taken this trip, I think I'd have made excuses why I couldn't or shouldn't and end up missing out on what we have. The truth of that makes me sad over the way I've been. Now that I'm here with you, I would never go back. I wonder if you feel the same. I hope you do, and I hope you forgive me for the truth of how I was before.
I know you have had a life before me but I was instantly jealous. You laughed it off and said he was teasing you. I know, I know I have no right to be jealous of anyone you’ve been with. It was a quick reminder though that I’m letting my emotions get way out of control concerning you. It made me wonder again about secrets. Here I say that and I’m keeping two big secrets from you. First I’m the owner of the firm, and two that little escapade with Megs and Leah. How can I cast any doubt on you when I’m keeping secrets from you?
That’s it! I have to tell you. I dont’ want there to be secrets between us. If I want you to trust me, and love me, then I should come clean with you.